Adages of You and Them

(A personal letter to one’s self)

You

You have two exquisite virtues. You are able to love genuinely and selflessly. You have unfaltering awe and affirmation towards the complexities and becoming facets of others.

You and Them

The universal insatiable need is this: to be known, understood, accepted and loved without condition. It is a plaguing void that unites and identifies us all as human.

You

Your steadfast assurance and introspective awareness is irresistible. Drawing all walks towards you. You always receive them. You cannot help yourself. You empathize in their humanness.

You recognize you will fail them, that they will fail you and they will fail each other.

You choose to be chewed up and spit out.

Them

Cynicism is prevention. Claim yourself a realist and notice your impenetrability.  Embrace relativism to cast aside disappointment.

Only then you will conquer. Survive rather than succumb. 

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.” - C.S. Lewis

Needs A Working Title

Woody Allen penned the script of my life.

He compiled yours to give himself a challenge.

Too bad for you.

I ask, I get, I fail.

I do not know what I am doing. I do not know what I am. I am no Maker. I do not do according to my definitions (I try). In fact, I do not own or originate my definitions. My definitions were designed, inherent, not by my doing or will; but from another source. Perhaps it is Nature, many conclude such; but Nature is not my maker, its my environment, my stimulus, a force that teaches me cause and effect. Nature does not create, it functions on the basis of its design. I am Nature. I can contribute to cause and effect; but by no means do I control, have authority over or manipulate it to my will.

I am cluelessly self aware.
I am fooled into worldly omniscience.
I am delusional for control.

This self-proclaimed moronic genius stands atop her soapbox exclaiming, “For I know best!”

And how wrong she is.

(Head-slap. Oh. Jeremiah 29:10-14)